Fatigued

Notes to Self — Episode 16

Aarish Shah

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As a year of lockdown approaches. A year where we didn’t eat out to help out, a year we didn’t see family even when the law said we could, a year when school, home and work became so intertwined as to be completely indistinguishable.

As that year comes ever closer to its close, I am not heartened by its ending, but instead, am just drained and unable to see straight. I am tired and stressed, fatigued and just void of energy in a way that I cannot even begin to describe anymore.

And I don’t know if I can get back to a place of healthy, happy balance, to a time of abundance and joy but I am going to fight like hell to make that happen.

Because though I am shattered, fatigued beyond even the most arduous of days I have had in life, I am not done.

We are not done.

And that’s why even now, even if I have to squeeze the words out of my parched mind, I write this.

Because it’s a promise I made to myself, a way to talk beyond the tiredness, a way to show I’m still here, still alive, still able.

Yes, I’m fatigued, but I’m not yet forgotten.

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Aarish Shah

Generalist | Thinker | Life Long Learner | Writer | Photographer